My love Duke Passed Away august 29th 1998..he was my love..my life..my everything....I wrote this the day his ashes where brought home....
My Love came home today
my love came home today but not in his usual way
he's not bounding through the door jumping or running with glee
he's not making his honorary rounds around the yard or peeing on his tree
he's not standing at the cupboard awaiting a treat or beggin for the keys
there are no victory rounds through the house with the key as a trophy
and a bone for a prise no little whimpers
or happy sighs
no light bark
or him jumping at my side
no light kisses
on my hand or cheek
no kind eyes
to look up at me
yes my love came home today but not in his usual way
like a soldier comes home to his country after a battle long fought but lost
my warrior comes home today but not in his usual way..
My love comes home today to rest in peace...where he use to lay...
I love you always and forever..My Duke...
Duke...you where so much more than we ever deserved...you where kind and loving..and you gave me a reason to go on.. a reason to face the day...when I needed someone you where there..always a shoulder to cry on..the one I could hold..who would often hold me in your own way...I miss the countless hours we spent laying on the floor...so close and warm...falling a sleep...I could wrap my arms around you...and hold you tight..and you would snuggle up close to me...so sweet...
you where the one who came to me when I cried...who comforted me when a dream kept me awake...that dream being of losing you..my one and only fear..that I would lose you....how many nights you came to me when you heard me call lightly..or even when you heard me cry..you knew my fear...and you knew it would become real someday soon..too soon...our moments together..the long walks...or the quiet moments of sitting on the porch steps side by side...my arm around you pointing out stars..you knew one day you would be looking down at me....
my love...I prayed..and prayed that I would die in your place..I would have gladly taken the suffering..and the pain..and even more so gladly would I have been the one to go into that eternal sleep that fateful day...if only to give you one more week..one more day...hour...minute...one more moment of happiness..of life and freedom....I would have given it all for you my love...you where always more than a pet..more than a companion you where my soul mate now and for ever...the legends hold true..that there are those who's soul mates are in the form of a dog..and that they are inseparable..even after death..I know you are at my side my love...and that some day we will meet again..I look forward to that day..until then I shall for ever look to the stars..and my love..I will see our dream to term..I will do as I promised...
my Love that day...the day you passed on...As I held you in my arms...and watched helplessly as you slipped away...cradling you so gently..kissing your forehead..your nose...running my hands along your arms and paws...your tummy..remembering every sensation every line...every thing that was you...whispering how much I loved you and that I would see you again....that day...a piece of me died....the part of me that believed in forever...and that I could do anything....that part of me that thought anything was possible...the part of me that dared to dream....I lost you....and that which was me as well...I know that day I kept my eternal promise...I swore to you when Nicki Died..that come hell or High water..I would be at your side..NEVER...never would I leave you...you needed me then..and I was there..my final honor to you my love..to you who where there for me soo many times..again and again..always at my side..I wish I could have done more..I wish I could have cured you...yet you yourself fought hard..and though you beat the odds three times...lived three time when the doctor's said you should have died..and though you fought so hard and valiantly...my love...it seems you where not destined to win...because the cancer was stronger than your will..something I find hard to believe since you had a will of steal...
It's a pity that love can not cure everything as I once thought..for if it could have..then my love..you wouldn't have died..for we loved you so....if love could have saved you....if love could have cured you and given you life..my love you would be here today......
My love..I love you..no and forever....We have a bond that not even death can sever...I shall see you again my love...for now in my dreams and in the stars...yet someday soon..I shall see you again in heaven..I await that day...
Forever you are in my heart and mind..and for ever a part of my soul...for my love you will never truly die...for it is said..one does not die lest he is forgotten..and you...my love...shall never be forgotten..not as long as blood flows through my veins....
the page for my love
http://www.angelfire.com/nv/myangelsmyloveduke
Forever my love...
Love always
Your Denise